The sheepish return........

I don't know what exactly inspired me to come back here but here I am.

It has been a while. Quick update~

• I had a baby (I kinda figured you wouldn't think that it was still in there)
• I passed first and second year
• I am now a third year student based in a hospital 4 days a week.
• Sebastian (the baby) has grown and is now 15 months old and tearing around the place. He is gorgeous.
• James is now in year 3 and is doing brilliantly. He got another award at presentation day last year.
• Emily is now in year 2 and has been doing gymnastics so now she cartwheels everywhere.
• David is good, he is thinking about starting work now that Baz is getting bigger
• Aimee is all grown up, at uni, living on her own in the city
• Emma is on a national tour with her band the Lucky Wonders. She is such a clever little chicken pie.
• Mum is in the process of moving to Alice Springs. She has left Sydney and should be up there by the end of the week.
• I have a new nephew Nicholas (Becca and Peter's) who is 9 months old now
• I have my first niece Hannah (Andrew and Emma's) who unfortunately was stillborn but she is forever in my heart.

All in all life is good. Busy, exhausting but good. Now that I am in the clinical years at uni there might be some stories. I have already done my psych term so I have a few to share someday.

We are MOVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes you read it right we finally got a house. We get the keys next Tuesday and move on Thursday. It was amusing how it came to be. We applied for a house through a real estate that we hadn't applied through before and unfortunately we were unsuccessful BUT the real estate liked us so much that that really wanted us as tenants so they talked to the landlord of another property that they had for lease and got him to drop the price (by $40 a week) so that we can afford it. So now we are moving into a house that is bigger and better than the others that we had applied for! We get to move before Christmas and before baby and I am generally happy that things are moving along nicely.

It has freed up some brain space and now I can think about and start planning for baby. Probably a good idea as it is getting closer and closer every time I blink. Everyone else in my EB due in group (we are all due at about the same time) are so terribly organised in comparison. I am not feeling to bad now as if the baby was born today it would have somewhere to sleep (after I do a load of washing), a way to travel (after I pick up a layby) and something to wear (again after washing). The rest could be organised later. I will really jump into the set up once we move.

My Nana is staying with me this week. I have things to say but I have an antenatal appointment and don't have the time right now so I will come back.

And my uni results STILL haven't been released!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Photo time

David finally emptied the camera so here are some of my faves

Past exams onto other worries

My Exams are over!!!!

It was such a relief to have them out of the way although now the worry of waiting for the results has set in. Tomorrow is the day that they will send an email to the people that are required to sit a supplementary exam. So if I get an email I am a borderline student and need to sit another CCS MCAT exam on Friday (Yes THIS Friday) and if I don't get an email it means that I either have failed outright and am totally screwed - I would have to fight for a chance to redo first year or that I have passed. The actual results aren't coming out tomorrow so you don't know which of these categories you fall into. I don't know which is worse, getting an email or not getting an email. I don't have a date of when the actual results will be out but I am assuming it will be next week after all the supplementries are sat and processed.
The exams themselves weren't too bad. Now don't take that as a vote of confidence, I came out of the Monday exam thinking I did pretty well but I have since found out that I got soooooooo many things wrong. There was heaps of PPD (population and public health) and PPD (professional and personal development). It is the type of stuff that you take for granted but most of the questions they asked they wanted specific answers and I made up other answers so lots of marks down the drain there. The CCS MCAT was OK. I have worked out that I really need to practice my histories. I mean I know the list, I know the things I need to ask but actually getting it across in the interview is a whole other skill that I realised I suck at. Unfortunately I came to this realisation during the exam. Oh well something to work on for next year (if I get there). The LAB MCAT was meh. I always knew that I sucked at this because they took all the parts that I hate the most and put it into one exam. It was anatomy, microbiology and histology. How evil is that! I did OK on some stations and totally flunked others. That seems to be the general consensus from everyone though. It is funny, people all thought different stations were hard. I hated one of the histo ones, I barely answered any of the questions, but Chris from my PBL said it was a great one. I guess it is a play to ones strengths type thing and his previous degree is in anatomy so he has done it all before. The writtens were ok. I finished the Wednesday one that has multiple choice really fast. I was a little scared I had missed a paper or something but I guess MCQ are just my thing (I should wait to get the results before I say that). So now we are up to waiting.

I went straight from stressing about exams to stressing about houses. I really wanted to move by this weekend but seeing as I still haven't got a house to go to I can pretty much guarantee that that is not going to happen. We have applied for 10 houses so far YES 10!!!! and we still have nowhere to go. I know that 2 students with children doesn't look brilliant on paper but we are good people and I am a good budgeter and the rent will get paid on time and I am even pretty good at keeping the house clean - especially since we are having open houses every weekend here so the house always needs to be spotless. It has got us into a cleaning routine and we didn't even let it get away from us during exams. I just hope it happens soon I mean like tomorrow or something as we really need to move pre Christmas because after that baby is upon us and we run out of time.

Which brings us to our next topic - baby! He is going strong, kicks the shit out of me. I think he is going to be huge. He has been measuring ahead the whole time and it had gotten to the stage where I am uncomfortable and he is right up under my ribs already. I am 31 weeks and 4 days today. I have only been seeing my GP, but I have to go back and see the OB in December. I am just hoping that she doesn't say too big no VBAC. I would be devastated. David thinks I am a bit crazy for trying again I guess I do at times but I know that I will regret it if I don't try.

Other news - My nana had a heart attack. She is OK, she got home from hospital today. But doesn't she know that it is not allowed to happen to her? I mean she has always been a horse, so strong. And now the apex of her heart is dead and she is at an increased risk forever. She thought she had the flu. I told mum to take her to the hospital but mum thought that she had the flu too. It made me upset when she did end up in the hospital, I wanted to say 'told you' but obviously not really appropriate at the time.

Mum annoyed the crap out of today, but I got my own back - well nana did. We didn't know that nana would go home today so we were planning on visiting. Mum and Aimee were coming up and they were going to pick me up on the way. Mum said, several times yesterday that they would be leaving early and would be at my house at 9 or 10 (I just said sure, I have me her before lol). So I get up and ready and cook a batch of scones. At 10 to 9 my phone rings I assume it is mum telling me she is leaving (which would have her at my house at 10:30ish so still late) but it was Emma. Mum rings probably 20 minutes later saying that she had just gotten up. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. That annoyed me as mum had been going on about how she needs to be back by 4 for Aimee’s driving lesson. She also said that Michael was coming, which also annoyed me as he has been an unsupportive prick for the last week. Then like an hour later she rings to say that nana is getting sent home. Then she rings to say that she is now NOT going to pick me up because she was going to take nana home and with fuckface (read Michael) in the car I don't fit. That really really pissed me off but I just said whatever. Then David butted in and sent mum a message saying how pissed I was (which I was annoyed about) so she is like fine we will pick you up. So then they leave then 10 minutes later she rings and is like nana is ready to leave so you'll have to go and pick her up as we are still too far away. That was not the plan!!! I was not supposed to have to drive in the city!!! I HATE driving in the city. I had to enlist David, it was more like drafting because he did not go willingly, and go to the city, then to nanas. So my day went from a nice trouble free visit to nana (in the morning!) to having to drive to the city and disrupt David’s planned day. I know it doesn't sound that bad and I really don't mind doing things for nana, it is just mum and her reckless abandonment plans (gee that makes me sound like a stick but if you had my mother you would understand). It was all because she was too freaking lazy to get out of bed. More annoying is that Paul (my uncle) was organised to pick nana up and mum told him not to bother because she was going anyway. Only to the turn around and palm it off on me. So I got nana and took her home. Mum beat us there. We probably got there at 1sh. Then as it gets towards 2, mum says that she needs to go soon for Aimee’s driving lesson. I told her she had to stay as nana was too scared to be alone and Jenni wouldn't be there till 6. She then wanted me to send David home to pick up the kids while I stay there then have Davis come back in peak hour to pick me up. How totally unreasonable is that!!! So I told her that nana trumps a freaking driving lesson. Nan at this point laid the guilt trip on and being the master manipulator that she is mum ended up staying hehehehe.

The other other news I have is that Rebecca (David's Sister) is pregnant! I was so excited when I heard. It is still very early days. She is due in July so at least this one will have a cousin close in age.

Too many things

I have too many things happening at the moment all of which need my full and undivided attention.

STILL haven't moved. The house has been on the market for a while now but because of the whole world financial crisis crap it hasn't sold (thank god). It almost sold but it fell through which I was pleased about as it was really bad timing. There is nothing out there to rent at the moment. everything is way overpriced and anything that is affordable has 50 odd applications so we don't have much of a chance. We are up to about our 5th application which is pending atm.

Baby is still on the way. He is growing quickly and I am starting to get the beached whale feeling (I think it is too early for this but it is just another thing I have no control over) 3rd trimester now which is pretty scary. Did I tell you it is a boy? I know I haven't posted in a while but I am not sure how long a while lol. We have decided to keep the name a secret so that at least there will be something to announce when he is born. And it makes it fun to tease MIL. She hates the name Dexter so we keep calling him Dex in front of her LOL.

Uni is coming to crunch time, 2 weeks 4 days till exams and I am totally freaking. I have been freaking since about 10 weeks till exams so I am really freaking now. This freaking level probably coincides with the lack of posts. I post now as I am entering the procrastination stage of study. Now I have the guilts, I better go.

The invasion.

The invasion has begun. By that I mean that my house is no longer my own. The push to get it ready for sale is in full swing with a constant stream of David's relatives and soon painters invading my space. I just want to find a new place and be done with it. Today is my 'study day' (I have a lecture in the afternoon but I don't tend to go) and I really enjoy my peace and quiet on Mondays - I don't even let anyone know I am home. Today there was a knock at my door. I was going to ignore it but I had the TV on so I thought I better answer (I thought it would just be someone trying to sell me something) so I did and there was David's aunty. She showed up unannounced (and dare I say uninvited and unwanted) to do some work in the garden. I know that this isn't like some great affliction or she is horrible or invasive but I like my space! I feel like I am living in someone else’s at the moment. I just want to hurry up and find a house and get out of here. Preferably before all the open house crap starts.

We looked at a house on Saturday. It is just about the only one that has what we need that has cropped up in our price range. It was tiny. The rooms were really small. The main bedroom would have room for a bed and pretty much nothing else. But it had an extra little room that could be a toy room and the garage can be used as a study, so it was workable (and we could actually pay the rent which is always a bonus.) The main problem with it was that it was an 'open house' type viewing and there were sooooooooo many people there. I mean we got there a little early and had to park half way down the street. It makes me wonder even if we do find a suitable house how the hell are we supposed to get approved over all these other people. It's not like we have great jobs or anything and are terribly stable. We are students, with kids who live on next to nothing.

In other news I have an exam on Friday (great timing hey). It is a clinical exam, thankfully formative but I still don't want to stuff it up.

10 days till I have my ultrasound and hopefully find out if it is a boy or a girl. Emily was such a brat this morning that I rang David saying that it's not allowed to be another girl lol. She was just being so stubborn and didn't want to get dressed.

I think the amount of space devoted to house talk and to the other facets of my life is very indicative of my state of mind at the moment. I just can't wait till it is all sorted and I don't have to worry about it anymore.

Luna Park

Yesterday we all went to Luna Park. It was for James' birthday which was a week ago. We decided that he wasn't going to have a party this year so we took him, Emily and Paul (a friend) on an outing instead. We dragged Aimee along as well as David hates rides and I can't go on them because I am pregnant. The tickets at Luna Park are done by height so if you are taller than 130cm you can go on any ride you like, between 106-129cm you can co on some and go on others with someone over 18. James was 128cm. It was very frustrating, especially because Paul was over 130cm and was able to go on things that James couldn't. At one stage James and Emily went on the 'kiddy' rides while Paul and Aimee went on the pirate ship (I think it is called the ranger there), poor James looked soooooo bored on the kiddy rides and jealous that Paul got to go on the cool ones.

Emily was a little brat on the way there and almost got sent home with David. She just threw a massive tantrum on the way there, I can't even remember why because it was such a stupid reason. David and Emily just don't mix when they are cranky. She gets to a point where she has just 'lost it' and needs to be calmed down before any sense can be talked into her and David refuses to hug her (which calms her down) until she stops throwing a tantrum. It makes for a fun experience as they can both be as bad as each other - it must be the red hair.

We got lots of photos. Proof that my children are insane. Some of the rides I just had to hold my hands over my mouth as I watched my tiny little babies spin around and go up high and stick to walls. I guess they are getting bigger than I like to think they are. I will post some photos when I work out where David put the camera.