I really am going!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I did it!!!!!

I passed everything!!!!!!

I am so relieved. Now I can graduate and do med and best of all RELAX! I feel like a weight has been lifted (how clichéd)

Stress Head

WOW it sure has been a while.

If you have been waiting to find out, I got in! The letter still hadn't arrived by the following Thursday (It was the most horrible wait ever) so I rang the uni and they kindly let me know that I was offered a CSP (commonwealth supported place) which is exactly what I wanted as it has no strings attached. They posted me a new letter and the old one and new one arrived on the same day even though they were posted a week apart.

I went straight from there to trying to get all of my uni work finished on time. I had 6 pracs for phys chem to do along with marketing assignments and organic pracs and assignments so I became very very busy after the wait was lifted.

Then there were the exams. They were THE WORST set of exams ever. I HATE physical chemistry. I just don’t do maths and this subject was full of freaking maths.

My first exam was marketing strategy. I felt like I passed this one - I felt pretty good afterwards and any other subject and I would have come out feeling pretty confident but this subject and I just don't get along. In the midterm (which unfortunately was worth 30% of my final mark) I came out feeling that I had done OK, not brilliantly but at least a credit, and I flunked it. 13.5/30. I just didn't understand why the mark was so fucked. This subsequently screwed my entire confidence in the subject and I was very stressed going into the final exam. We'll have to wait and see on this one but I'm thinking I'll pass. I need to get 23/40 to get the required mark to keep my GPA high enough for my medical school offer to remain valid. Yes you read that right - if I don't get high enough marks then I lose my hard earned med school position. Talk about pressure. I SHOULD be OK in this subject though.

The next exam was organic chemistry. I actually like organic chemistry. However my liking of the subject does not translate into ease of the exam. There were 5 sections to the exam. I was confident with 2 OK with 2 and the other section was just screwed. The teacher for this other section is really frustrating. Although he is probably only in his 40/50s he has a total aversion to technology and wrote his lecture notes on the board or used overheads whilst we sat there copying them. How archaic is that! How the hell am I supposed to listen to you when I am trying to write at 100 miles an hour just to get a basic copy of the notes????? Anyway he had 3x as many reaction types as anyone else which was fine I learnt them all. But the questions he uses are NOTHING like the examples. He always puts in little tricks to throw us off the scent of draws the molecule in a way that he didn't use in the lectures and still expect us to recognise it. I mean fine draw I in all sorts of ways but you need to teach us that in the lectures if you expect it from us in the exams. Grrrrrrr. I think I passed this too but I'm not sure about getting the required mark for GPA maintenance. I was getting sick by this exam.

Lastly was the dreaded physical chemistry exam. I was sooooooo sick by the time this one rolled around. I was coughing constantly have a temperature that refused to go away with drugs, had the runs, was constantly dizzy and kept falling asleep, but I had to do the exam. I looked into doing a supplementary exam which is pretty easy, you just need a medical certificate. But if I did that the supplementary exam wasn't till mid December and my degree needs to be finalised be the 6th to graduate in the next round. If I put of my exam I wouldn't graduate in December, which would mean that although I had finished my degree and all that I wouldn't actually graduate till July which means I couldn’t start medicine. So I HAD to sit the exam in this state. It was sooooo hard to study when sick. I just couldn't get anything to stay in my head. In the actual exam I think I pissed off everyone around me with my coughing. The invigilators even came up and offered me a cough lolly. Anyway I don't know how I did. This exam will be very borderline. I will be so pissed off if I actually fail something now. Not only would I not graduate, I would not be able to start med next year and my GPA would be so screwed that my chances of getting in again next year would be virtually nil.

Results will be out next Friday. I have never been nervous about results release before, yet here I am counting down the days till my future is revealed.

At least I have Christmas to distract me. I have been shopping 4 times this week already. We have brought Christmas lights and I am going to go climbing on the roof next week to put them all up. I am almost finished all my shopping (My kids are so spoilt LOL) Just 2 people to go. This week has been great in that I have nothing that I am supposed to be doing so I don't have that constant feeling of guilt. I am loving not having the guilt.

Oh yeah I brought a stethoscope!!!!!!!! (I better bloody graduate now LOL)
Here it is. I went for the 'seafoam green'. The purple was more blue so I didn't like it and the pink is a bit typecasting so decided to avoid it. I like this green. It is a bit sparkly. It is laser engraved with my name and phone number because I am hopeless and know that I am going to lose it. So I better bloody pass as I can't sell it now.

In other totally unrelated news my little sister (who is 16 now) was in a singing concert last week. I was so proud. She is an actor usually so I have seen her onstage hundreds of times but never singing. I video taped it and will post it when I install the firewire so that I can get it of my video recorder. P.S. don't hold your breath LOL.

Well that is all for now. I will keep you more updated now that I am not as stressed or busy.