Baby on the brain

We are all travelling well here. I am being a bit pregnancy focused at the moment but I am trying to not let it consume me. David pissed me off yesterday. It was about 10pm and I was tired and wanted to go to bed and he said 'why do you want to go to bed early all the time, you sleep too much' and I was like, 'ah, I’m pregnant' and he said 'you're only 6 weeks'. It sounds really small but it really upset me at the time because hell yeah I am more tired than usual. It doesn't matter that I am still in the early days I still have hormones flying all over the place and doesn't he know that all the organs are formed in the first 12 weeks anyway, after that it is just growing and maturing. You could say well how is he supposed to know that, but he IS supposed to know that. He did a little bit of embryology at uni a week or two ago and he talked about it like he was interested so I brought home a human embryology book from uni and he didn't even look at it. Not to mention that I have borrowed both obstetrics and midwifery books. I was kind of hoping that he would take more interest in this pregnancy considering that he will be the main caregiver once the baby is born but no, he is too addicted to that stupid fucking WOW. I HATE WOW. I want to sue blizzard. They are creating a generation of mindless drones who are completely unable to interact IRL because they NEED to do this battleground, and instead of coming downstairs and talking to their partners (if their partners haven't left them yet) they go to a 'pub' in the game. How much more losery do you get? Oops that was such an unintentional vent. I have an agreement from him now anyway, once his account expires that is it, he is done. It expires on the 10th of June, you have no idea how much I am counting down the days.

In other news dad came over and fixed the roof. It has been leaking since we moved in and it had a big gaping hole upstairs that I was always petrified that spiders would come in through. It was good to see him (it is pretty rare) but he annoyed me because he never said congratulations about the baby. On Thursday David told him when I was at uni and when I got home he said nothing about it at all even when I brought it up. I didn't see him Friday because I was at uni and on Saturday he just said 'why?’ It is so annoying, both my mother and father view a pregnancy as an unwanted, undesirable thing. They act as though it was the worst thing that could have happened. I mean I understand that getting pregnant was hat forced them to get married - which obviously was not a good thing but my pregnancy was PLANNED. We WANT this baby, it isn't something that we are willing to 'put up with' it is not an inconvenience. Why can't they just understand this? Mum still insists on calling me insane, she can't see why I would want a baby. It is about the first thing I have ever seen them agree on LOL.

I went to the doctor on Wednesday just to get the ball rolling and it seems to be rolling faster than I expected. I have an appointment with the hospital ANC (antenatal clinic) at just 7+5 weeks. We were conspiring as to which hospital to send me to. I say conspiring because I have had 2 previous caesareans and I am a public patient so I don't really have a choice in OB so I have to choose a hospital that gives me the highest chance of being allowed to have a trial of labour. So I have 3 hospitals around, there is Liverpool which is a big one, St George also big but further away and Bankstown which has a smaller maternity unit and doesn't really take on the higher risk cases. We decided to go with Bankstown because they are attached to both Liverpool and RPA. So I will go to Bankstown hopefully get classed as high risk and be sent to RPA as RPA is the hospital most likely to let me try. I just hope that our evil planning works and they don't just say no outright. I would be very tempted to try and find a midwife willing to do a VBA2C home birth if they won't let me try but I really would prefer to be in a hospital. Nothing I can do now but wait for the appointment.

I have a mid year exam for uni in 32 days so I am starting to freak. That is barely 2 days a topic and we have to keep doing the current work at the same time. I really need to focus on this and not the baby.